Ujamaa Christian Poetry
What! Who me? Apologize for what?
I did nothing wrong!
[Apologize for the misunderstandings,
the hurt, the pain,
the gossip, the back-stabbing,
and anything else you did].
Why should I?
Then they'll think that I was in the wrong.
For what? I just defended myself;
I had heard they talked about me,
I just can't put up with that.
If someone talked about you,
did you wrong, wouldn't you defend yourself?
To whom? When does it stop?
[Apologize to the waiter, waitress,
cashier, your neighbor, you kids,
your spouse, your mom, your dad,
your supervisor…whatever it takes].
Oh Jehovah, give me a break!
If I be the first to apologize,
people will take advantage then.
People should apologize to me,
I've been wronged,
my dad abused me,
men used me,
I didn't have a happy home.
God? God are you there?
I can no longer hear you,
ok, be that way, I really don't need you.
I have a Ph.D., I have money in the bank,
my kids are well-behaved,
I really don't need anything else from you.
I went through valleys, felt empty within,
I lost my career; my husband strayed,
my will to live was wearing thin.
I looked up to the Heavens, asked God for help,
I apologized for my bad behavior,
and begged forgiveness from Him.
God please forgive me,
I'm ready to move on,
I'm tired of living this way,
please bless my home.
I heard God say,
[I took you through valleys to humble you…
do not grow weary…do not tire of trying to live a righteous life,
at the appointed time, I will reward you…
and yes, I forgive you].
Written by Michelle Phillips
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